Cured Maybe?

Well I suppose myself might be cured, I thought of it only on Birthday, sort of wistful because I've always wanted to throw a Dragonrealms birthday party for myself and my character, our birthdays are on the same day because I made my character on my 16th birthday oh so long ago. I've always thought I wanted white fox fur items, black leather, and purple -blue gems and jewels -stylish but only to my mind though. I have a few projects that, I can't quite seem to get too. Don't know if I'm holding myself back from them or if I'm afraid of them, because of how it will change me and who I am. One should both confront ones fears, and leave the past in the past without disturbing sleeping dogs. But if your fears drive you to never sleep peacefully, to waken at midnight and beat one's fist helplessly against the floor until bloodied, shouldn't you awaken it, and face it so that you can reach the best of your potential? That is the choice I face, before dragonrealms I was tormented by some people, and I found solstice and friendship in a game. But the memory of that torment lives on within me. It drives me, tempts me, scares me. It tells me I should seek revenge, it tells me I should do that to others, it scares me that I might do either of the previous two. Previously, whenever it cropped it's ugly head up, I just threw myself back into a game, or series of games, any game at all to forget. The real problem is... games don't stop the memories anymore.