It's been 4 years and...
I am still addicted! Waaaah!
I cannot stop thinking about my first gaming love. Does this happen with everyone, that first game that you absolutely loved to death and can't bring yourself to part with?
I keep thinking. Wouldn't it be nice to just sign in today. I have more than enough money. I could sign in today if I wanted. I could buy a Wedding Package and schedule a birthday party for my character if I wanted, and if any male or female dared call me "Sir Cha" and tell me that the character I made back in 1995 was broken I could slap them for it! First time in 4 years. I've been obsessively reading the DragonRealms Forums. New Enchantes, new spells, 2 new continents I haven't begun to explore yet, new music system. Bagpipes! Harpsichords! Some bard dreams came true right there!
Worst. My sweetheart discovered the 'old Sircha' figurine I had been holding onto. He looked at her and he looked at me, and he looked at her, and said, "Can you be like her for me please?"
Ugh! I've spent the past 4 years to be as un-like Sircha as humanely possible. I've been trying very hard to split myself from the character that has grown to be too much of me. As a character "Sircha" was heavily narcissitic didn't know the meaning of humility. As a person behind the character I didn't know what the 7 pillars of good meaning were, and I went on a personal quest to find out. I don't intend to return until I have all 7 of them down. (As I understand this may take a decade or two.)
The first of the seven treasures is to know and love yourself. If you can't accept your own faults and love yourself for who you are, then you are truly lost.
The second of the seven treasures is to treat each person you meet as an irreplacable treasure. (I'm working on this one)
The third of the seven treasures is to be polite to others. (No bad habits infront of others.) Something I struggle with daily.
The fourth of the seven treasures is humility. Not all conversation you hear means that people are talking about you. Usually they are talking about someone else. You need self love the first treasure to keep yourself from falling to narcissism.
Narcissism is actually self-hatred posing as self-love. At it's far extreme you may become the Joker from Batman. You direct all attention to yourself and resort to acts of crime, terrorism, anger, and violence to always have everyone's attention on you. You may also change everything in your wardrobe/den/home/blog every week, and nothing truly satisfies you. That is an earmark trait of a narcissist. However, when you do not have everyone's attention your thoughts immediately turn to how your not perfect, your not great, your terrible, your stupid & ugly until you fall into a deep depression. That only awaits your next genius and deeply narcissistic moment can bring you back out of.
The fifth treasure is Respect, it draws from the 2nd pillar of treating each person as an irreplacable treasure, that also goes for that person's belongings, status and other people around that person.
The sixth & seventh treasures. I'm afraid I'm not sure what those are, although they were explained to me several times. I've been struggling along so hard with understanding and practicing the first five.
I cannot stop thinking about my first gaming love. Does this happen with everyone, that first game that you absolutely loved to death and can't bring yourself to part with?
I keep thinking. Wouldn't it be nice to just sign in today. I have more than enough money. I could sign in today if I wanted. I could buy a Wedding Package and schedule a birthday party for my character if I wanted, and if any male or female dared call me "Sir Cha" and tell me that the character I made back in 1995 was broken I could slap them for it! First time in 4 years. I've been obsessively reading the DragonRealms Forums. New Enchantes, new spells, 2 new continents I haven't begun to explore yet, new music system. Bagpipes! Harpsichords! Some bard dreams came true right there!
Worst. My sweetheart discovered the 'old Sircha' figurine I had been holding onto. He looked at her and he looked at me, and he looked at her, and said, "Can you be like her for me please?"
Ugh! I've spent the past 4 years to be as un-like Sircha as humanely possible. I've been trying very hard to split myself from the character that has grown to be too much of me. As a character "Sircha" was heavily narcissitic didn't know the meaning of humility. As a person behind the character I didn't know what the 7 pillars of good meaning were, and I went on a personal quest to find out. I don't intend to return until I have all 7 of them down. (As I understand this may take a decade or two.)
The first of the seven treasures is to know and love yourself. If you can't accept your own faults and love yourself for who you are, then you are truly lost.
The second of the seven treasures is to treat each person you meet as an irreplacable treasure. (I'm working on this one)
The third of the seven treasures is to be polite to others. (No bad habits infront of others.) Something I struggle with daily.
The fourth of the seven treasures is humility. Not all conversation you hear means that people are talking about you. Usually they are talking about someone else. You need self love the first treasure to keep yourself from falling to narcissism.
Narcissism is actually self-hatred posing as self-love. At it's far extreme you may become the Joker from Batman. You direct all attention to yourself and resort to acts of crime, terrorism, anger, and violence to always have everyone's attention on you. You may also change everything in your wardrobe/den/home/blog every week, and nothing truly satisfies you. That is an earmark trait of a narcissist. However, when you do not have everyone's attention your thoughts immediately turn to how your not perfect, your not great, your terrible, your stupid & ugly until you fall into a deep depression. That only awaits your next genius and deeply narcissistic moment can bring you back out of.
The fifth treasure is Respect, it draws from the 2nd pillar of treating each person as an irreplacable treasure, that also goes for that person's belongings, status and other people around that person.
The sixth & seventh treasures. I'm afraid I'm not sure what those are, although they were explained to me several times. I've been struggling along so hard with understanding and practicing the first five.
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